I am having a really rotten day. For some reason I am just sad, homesick and a little
anxious. Trying to cultivate joy this afternoon
in the middle of paperwork, looming taxes and trying to figure out when to work
out and when to have dinner.
Also,
thinking hard thoughts like, “Do I really love Jesus?” and “How do I live in
the love of Jesus without fear?” "How can I say I love Jesus when I don't always love the people around me?"
So, in the middle of all this I get a call from the
gastroenterologist with the results of my Christmas endoscopy. The nurse says the Barrett’s is gone.
Healed.
Awesome.
I still have some acid
reflux damage but the bad part is healed and this means no endoscopy for three years. This is a miracle for someone to whom anxiety is the default position.
Joy can come from such weird places but today I will take
it. I still don’t know whether I love
Jesus enough (probably yes and no) but right now I am certain He loves me.
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